My lover Robbie

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'EXCLUSIVE THE REAL ROBSTER BY THE WOMAN HE'S CLOSEST TO
By Michael Duffy

SHE is a humble barmaid earning £16,000 a year. He is an international rock icon with an £80million record deal.
Yet away from the stage lights and his army of fans, Robbie Williams has been having a secret relationship with Charlotte Austin for the last 18 months.
Charlotte says apart from the sensual intimacy they shared, she also discovered Robbie's soft and sweet side while they cuddled up in his £2million London penthouse sipping tea, sharing jokes and watching trashy TV.
And she tells how they were brought together by the depression that has haunted both their lives.
She said: "It's quite empowering to be involved with him - it's empowering to tell him, 'Sorry, I can't see you tonight, Robbie Williams.' But at other times he's just your mate Rob and you miss him just because you want to spend time with him."
New Zealand-born Charlotte, 26, met the superstar singer last year when she was working in the five-star Conrad Hotel next door to his Chelsea apartment.
She said it was 10 months before they first slept together in his pad, with Robbie wooing her by crooning in her ear.
"I told him how much I liked Elton John's song Tiny Dancer and he sang it to me and it was beautiful," she said.
"It had been just a normal night hanging out at his place the first time we had sex. Late in the evening we were sitting on the couch and he started to kiss me - it was just like with any other couple - we kissed and things started to get heated.
"Even though it was Robbie Williams, it still isn't like a movie where people are ripping clothes off and I get carried to the bedroom.
"It was all very real, but very lovely - we just walked into the bedroom and proceeded to have serious hanky-panky.
"It wasn't kinky, it was straight-forward, but he is very, very good at what he does - he knows how to treat a woman, and he likes to leave the lights on.
"It was all very sweet and it was the best sex I had ever had - not because it was Robbie Williams, but because he is so unselfish and just so lovely about it all.
"And stamina-wise - he has no problems at all."
She met the 32-year-old superstar, who is currently on a world tour, in May 2005 when Robbie took refuge in her hotel after being pursued by paparazzi.
Charlotte joked that the photographers were there for HER and not for him, and that he should stop being so self-centred. "He laughed and he told me I was a fabulous-looking girl," she said. "We hit it off right away. I'm not a fan, and I don't like his music at all. And because I took the piss out of him, I think he felt comfortable with me.
"We started chatting every time he came in. He used my name straight away because he could read it from the name-badge on my uniform so I started calling him Rob."
She said the former Take That singer - who became a solo superstar with huge hits including Angels and Rock DJ - would often wander into her hotel alone to sit and drink tea in the evenings and seemed to crave company.
She said: "He went away to LA for a while and when he came back we struck up our friendship properly. He was a real flatterer. He'd always tell me I looked fantastic or fabulous - it was always these really overblown compliments.
"It's a bit empowering - if Robbie Williams tells you you're gorgeous, well it does help to get rid of some of your insecurities. I mean - if he thinks you're beautiful then you have to have something going for you, don't you?"
But it wasn't until March this year that the singer asked for her phone number. "We were just chatting away about the normal stuff - well, my stuff was normal, his was about LA and recording," Charlotte said. "Then he asked me when we were going to start hanging out. He asked for my number and I gave it to him. I know a lot of girls might have been waiting by the phone, but I wasn't - by this stage I knew him quite well.
"I'd been serving him in the bar and joking with him for almost a year so it seemed normal that he might call me. He called the next day and I was asleep. And even though I hadn't been excited before, when he said, 'Hi it's Rob', it was a thrill.
"He asked me when we were going to head out and I told him I was free the following night. Rob rang back to make the arrangements and he asked me to meet him in a South London recording studio.
"I have no idea what he was recording, but it must have been for his new album.
"It was all a bit surreal walking into his studio, saying hi and watching him sing. It was only a small group, there weren't many people there and, while it was fine, it was quite businesslike.
"Then after they'd finished we went back to his flat to drink tea."
Charlotte - who moved to London from New Zealand 18 months ago to work in bars - said she was "blown away" by his luxury apartment. "It's bizarre being in a flat with a television that is worth as much as I'd earn in a year," she said.
"And you should see his shoe collection. It isn't like Imelda Marcos's - there's no way she had that many shoes.
"We watched television in his bed - just rubbish - channel-surfing and hanging out.
It was late and we agreed I should stay.
WE kissed and it was lovely, but there was no suggestion we were going to have sex that first night - we just fell asleep in each other's arms at about 2am.
"And that is when it hit me - when you see him in the flesh with those famous tattoos - that's when you remember that your mate Rob is actually the Robbie Williams all those girls lust after.
"It's a story to tell and I knew what my friends would think, but it wasn't like that - it was like hanging out with a pal."
She said dates with Robbie were "normal to the point of being boring".
"He can't go out in London because he gets mobbed so hanging out with him means being in his apartment," she said. "It's a bit impersonal - like a huge hotel room - because he considers LA his real home.
"And he doesn't drink. So it's tea and food and television. Just so utterly normal and boring. But he is lovely to spend time with and talk to."
Charlotte said she had previously suffered from depression, which was something she spoke about regularly with the troubled star.
She said: "It had been a big deal in my life and he understood what I was talking about. On one occasion I was having trouble reaching orgasm during sex and he told me it was due to the anti-depressant drugs I was on. He said he had some experience with how the drugs could affect your sex life."
But as close as the pair became as she developed into his "London lover", she said there were unwritten rules to being one of his girls.
In recent months Robbie's romps on the road with girls in Sweden and Bratislava have been exposed.
She said: "There's kind of an unspoken arrangement with Robbie. You know he might never call back, you know you're not the only one. He doesn't often call girls back or revisit them. But he did with me for some reason.
"I knew he was with lots of other girls at the same time - he has them all over the world - that's just something you accept.
"But when you're spending time with him and things get physical you start to think it would be nice for it to continue, even though you know it could end at any time. We'd talk about the other girls and how for them it was their big night - something they'd remember forever.
EVERYONE who goes with him wants to be 'The One'. They want to be different or want him to remember them - they want Robbie Williams to fall in love with them.
"We'd quite often talk about that. He knows it's a really big deal for all these girls. Part of him absolutely loves that and part of him is sad about it."
But Charlotte says she never felt hurt - even when he failed to call for weeks after one liaison. She hasn't spoken to him for four weeks and doesn't know whether he'll call again.
Charlotte said she had never wanted to speak about the affair and kept it secret but she felt compelled to speak after details of their liaison leaked out.
"I'm just a normal girl and I never wanted to attach myself to his fame," she said. "But once people knew then I started getting some of the media attention he was getting - I just wanted to set the story straight about how lovely he really is.
"From the moment he walked into the hotel we had an immediate rapport.
"But at the same time you could see he's magnetic and has a rapport with everyone.
He's someone you see on television, in magazines and on billboards, then suddenly he's there in front of you and he's just so lovely and charismatic.
"Robbie's a good-looking guy, but that isn't what it's about. He is so engaging and lovely and funny - he's a performer - that's what sets him apart. The majority of his attractiveness isn't his looks - it's his way. I'm not saying he isn't physically attractive, but it's more than that."
Earlier this month Robbie was spotted wandering around the lobby of a luxury golf resort in a seemingly dazed state, sparking fears for his mental health.
But Charlotte said apart from bouts of depression, he is generally happy. She said: "Imagine being in that world, being under scrutiny 24 hours a day and every woman who sleeps with you ends up in a newspaper. Then imagine the bizarre lifestyle of travel, money and fame he has.
"Things are going to be different for him and he knows that, but he feels he has been massacred for any deviation he shows from a normal suburban bloke.
"Deep down he loves his life - he knows it is a bizarre existence, but he loves what he does. I think he will marry one day.
"I just think he's having fun while he is young and will only settle down once his career does."

michael.duffy@sundaymirror.co.uk'